January 30, 2008,

last run: January 21st. - 25 minutes - strugglin'

What??!! I haven't run in almost 2 weeks. Somehow, just couldn't get myself to do it the first week I came back from Little Rock, and then took sick this week. Color me demoralized as I have yet to do a 40 minute run, nor have I been able to start mileage this week. Marathon Rookie guy suggests just starting back with training as if you'd never missed any training time. I think it's crazy talk, but so is running a marathon, so I'll take his word for it.


Right now, I'm hot and dehydrated and stuffed up and achy, and every morning, I wake up and want to commence to running, only to subsequently stand up and realize that that is not to be the case. And coughing. Mustn't forget the coughing. I am short tempered and my eyes hurt. My body aches almost carelessly. I have only meditated about once in 2008.


Maybe it's the combination of traveling and also trying to keep up my running schedule that's slowed me down. Once again, crazy talk, but I will perservere. Whatever happens:


I AM STILL A RUNNER.


I am fully prepared to be shocked shitless by my retained abilities when I do recommence to running. I honestly think that my hiatus was simply my body knowing it needed a break after all of the traveling and caretaking and what not that I had been doing over these past couple of months - possibly also and internal sense that sickness was coming on and I needed to rest up. Whatever it is, I'm trying to be as lazy as possible and look forward to getting back on the path.


Visualize success...


Joined New York Road Runners tonight to start the process of ensuring entry in the 2009 New York Marathon. I thought it would be interesting not to wait until the very last minute - weighing the decision repeatedly, constantly turning it over in my mind...Turns out, there does come a knot in my stomach as I choose something that I can't turn back from - making a choice when I'm not pushed up against a wall. Shiny.


Now for more juice, and the legal-narcotic ecstasy of Nyquil Cough (tm).