Thursday, January 31, 2008

January 30, 2008,

last run: January 21st. - 25 minutes - strugglin'

What??!! I haven't run in almost 2 weeks. Somehow, just couldn't get myself to do it the first week I came back from Little Rock, and then took sick this week. Color me demoralized as I have yet to do a 40 minute run, nor have I been able to start mileage this week. Marathon Rookie guy suggests just starting back with training as if you'd never missed any training time. I think it's crazy talk, but so is running a marathon, so I'll take his word for it.


Right now, I'm hot and dehydrated and stuffed up and achy, and every morning, I wake up and want to commence to running, only to subsequently stand up and realize that that is not to be the case. And coughing. Mustn't forget the coughing. I am short tempered and my eyes hurt. My body aches almost carelessly. I have only meditated about once in 2008.


Maybe it's the combination of traveling and also trying to keep up my running schedule that's slowed me down. Once again, crazy talk, but I will perservere. Whatever happens:


I AM STILL A RUNNER.


I am fully prepared to be shocked shitless by my retained abilities when I do recommence to running. I honestly think that my hiatus was simply my body knowing it needed a break after all of the traveling and caretaking and what not that I had been doing over these past couple of months - possibly also and internal sense that sickness was coming on and I needed to rest up. Whatever it is, I'm trying to be as lazy as possible and look forward to getting back on the path.


Visualize success...


Joined New York Road Runners tonight to start the process of ensuring entry in the 2009 New York Marathon. I thought it would be interesting not to wait until the very last minute - weighing the decision repeatedly, constantly turning it over in my mind...Turns out, there does come a knot in my stomach as I choose something that I can't turn back from - making a choice when I'm not pushed up against a wall. Shiny.


Now for more juice, and the legal-narcotic ecstasy of Nyquil Cough (tm).

Sunday, January 20, 2008

January 20th - 28 minutes -

Ran in Little Rock - the hills, the hills. Very steep. Love running by my mother's place. Hills so steep and curving, you're never sure when the top will come, and then flat in the park. In my mind, Prospect Park has no elevation. Not compared to Little Rock hills. But then again, that's what I grew up with. Not being able to see far away for all the mountains and trees. Even in town.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

January 17th - Thursday - 7:30am - 41 degrees - sports bra, wicking tank, long-sleeved shirt, knit pants, gloves

Missed yesterday's run with travel. My schedule is so much harder to navigate when I go to Little Rock. I have to be much more vigilant in order to get my runs in. Add to that the fact that my family runs on a 24 hour schedule, and it means inadequate sleep as well. Well, off to do my 30 minute run - my first one ever. I have to do it without stopping. Without stopping.



Post-run;

30 minutes?


NO SWEAT!!


Well, plenty of sweat, actually, but really no problem on the running tip. I actually felt better than on my shorter runs. Definitely interesting to feel the process of my legs changing over to being cool with running during each session. They start out feeling sore and heavy, and I have to decide to keep going - then after they recover/warm-up/blood flows, they feel fine and can pump like a metronome. I think one of the things about being a mesomorph is that that changeover takes longer to happen than in ectomorphs. Would be an interesting concept, suggesting that I might be more naturally well-equipped to run long distances than I thought.



If, by some grace, I'm able to run tomorrow, I would like to run painful hill repeats over by the trailer, as that will be the best thing to burn out the stifling pent-up emotional energy that I have felt during this trip. The problem is absorbing everybody's emotional energy, and having no space here that belongs solely to me. Quite simply, at this moment, and feelings do change, I am sick of being a guest. Plus, the moral suppor tthing is draining when you don't have a little space to do your own thing. I am only now coming to a place where running can be that escape for me. Set me free.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

January 15th, 2008 - Tuesday

ran at 4pm

weight - 121.1, bodyfat - 19.9, water: 56%

temp: 36 - some snow,

wore: sports bra, Sugoi, tank top, fleece pants.

Totally missed yesterday. Between coming back from Philly and running to the Upper West Side to see what crazy talk is going on with my Mac - and staying to work on it, until we finally gave up in frustration at midnight. I didn't run. Even considered a late night excursion when I got home, but didn't count on it taking an hour and a half to make the trip. Now, I'm editing my running schedule to Tuesday/Wednesday, Friday/Saturday. Hopefully that will be okay with my body.

Needed the rest anyway.

Also, my new scale arrived yesterday. Now I know my weight, bodyfat, and most importantly - water - before and after each run. I can start keeping track of my hydration levels now, before I start my long runs. Which reminds me - Must water the plants before I leave town tomorrow....

Ok, off to the races...

Post run: 28 minutes - wt. - 121.2%, bfat - 19.8%, h2o - 56.1%
That was a challenge. Tried to lengthen my stride, which definitely tired me a bit. Knee hurt a little bit. Must remember to wear a brace next time. Had some mini-stops and starts. Need to make sure to get adequate calories 30 min. before I go out. All in all, not bad though. Finished strong and feeling good. Lets see how 30 minutes feels tomorrow.

Now, off to eat some of Kerry's deeee-licious turkey chili with collard greens.

Monday, January 14, 2008

January 13, 2008 - Sunday!!! - Total rest day - time to reflect and recharge for the coming week.

Let me just start off this entry by saying that I can't believe that in three weeks, I'll be running 5 miles. 5 MILES, BYTCHES!!! Crazy talk! These next two weeks are still timed runs - between 20 and 40 minutes. I'm going to talke this time to work on speed, stride, and mental imagery. Also, my scale should be arriving on Tuesday, so I can get a base sense of bodyfat, and start weighing myself before runs. I also want to get my Road Runner's membership dues in, and my Buffalo registration. Nisha and I have to think about accomodations. Maybe she can rock some of her Craigslist mojo and get us some great apartment situation, instead of some sorry hotel. She does have the magic.

The great comfort of doing this race training based on a set program, is that I can wake up in the morning and know what I need to do for my training. No lying in bed staring at the ceiling and wondering how far I should run today, or how fast. The only decision I have to make is what time to run, and how to dress most appropriately for the weather. If something happens to put me off that schedule, I can simply get back on it, and all things are well again. An oasis of certainty in an uncertain world. I wonder how I can extend that oasis in the rest of my life?

There are so many new projects coming up that truly excite me, but also tell me that I'm going to have to get a serious handle on my time in order to simultaneously:
1. Pay rent
2. Make steady progress on my new show
3. Dispatch new short and long term projects as they arise
4. Successfully train for and complete a marathon on May 25th, 2008 in Buffalo, New York.

As it gets on into the beginning/middle of May, I'm going to be doing some much longer runs on the weekends. Those bad boys are going to have to be scheduled in order for me to make sure they fit in. The Marathon Rookie guy suggests that I start my long runs - "especially your 20 mile run" - at the same time as the start of my scheduled race. That just so happens to be SEVEN FUCKING A.M.

His mama stank.

And he's probably right.

Dang.

I really do trust this guy's plan, though. Every week, I've been able to progress as scheduled, even when I was unsure that I'd be able to take the next step. This is good, because I'm kind of twitching with concern about the weekly mileage increases on my long runs. I really think I can do it, though. I think the program really prepares you for the ramp up.

I can do this. I know it.

Ok. Time for a shower. Then off to Philly

Sunday, January 13, 2008

January 12, 2008 - Saturday - 10:15am
26 minutes - 44 degrees
wore exercise tank w/built in bra, Sugoi cling hoodie, medium weight exercise pants

Ran with Dagan today. This marks the first time I've ever gone running with someone. We had a ball. A great big ball. Dagan's always good company, and he kept up a stream of cleverness to keep me entertained. He checked my stride, gave me pointers, and was generally a fun time. Seth from downstairs was right, it is hard to keep track of your breath and carry on a conversation. The whole session with Dagan was more challenging than running on my own, and got me a out of my comfort zone - which I never even realized I had, considering running has been anathema to me from a very young age. I'm looking forward to running with him again...

Homework for next week, lengthen my stride.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

January 10th, 2007 - Thursday - 12:25pm - 26 minutes - 45 degrees - sports bra, tank top, small blue hoodie, A hat, A gloves, fleece sweat pants

Today is a beautiful day.

Figured out that it's good to start out my run wondering if I should go back and get another layer. It endsu up being exactly enough by the end of the run. Doubled over with cramps/trots/spasms/menstrual onset/god knows what about 10 minutes into the run. My legs and lungs felt fine, but I didn't know if I was going to be sick, or in which direction. Tried to do a compensatory slow trot in that position, but eventually had to veer off road and find a secluded spot to see what was going on. Didn't want to stop, but couldn't go on not knowing if I was about to lose my dignity in the middle of Prospect Park. Didn't know if I should go home Stopped, stretched, squatted, and took stock. I started again at the slowest pace possible, had to walk for a little bit, and then got back to running.

Recovery Shocker: By 15 minutes in, I was feeling great. What felt like a serious event that threatened my session was dealt with in less than 5 minutes.

The last ten minutes of the run felt fabulous. When I got tired and wanted to slow down, I used my trick of choosing on a point in the distance and telling myself that I could slow down once I got there. Then, I focused on a point far past the spot I'd chosen. By the time I reached my rest spot, I was running strong and still focused on the more distant point. Often, that point just so happens to coincide with the end of my run. It surprises me everytime how well that works. I'm fascinated by the mental aspect of this training.

Fruit: I ate an orange a little before running today. The last time this gut thing happened, I had a banana right before the run. Methinks I see a pattern here....

Made whole wheat angel hair pasta last night until 3:30am. Was so much fun, and will be great for dinner tonight with Christopher and Rachel. Planning a marathon pasta party on the 27th with Rafe's girlfriend, who's run the New York Marathon, my downstairs neighbor - Seth, my friend Mandy, You and Jackye, and my roomies. A couple of friends from the neighbor hood too. Good times.

NB - Scratch that. It was menstrual. Oranges had nothing to do with it. A week's worth of twinges in a 5 minute stretch. Go fig.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

January 9th, 2007 - Wednesday -
12:45pm -
26 minutes -
55 degrees -
tank top, hoodie, medium weight pants, sports bra

Good run. Got a massage in the evening.

Monday, January 7, 2008

January 7th, 2008
Ran: 4:30pm
Wore: sports bra, tee shirt, light cotton pants
Temp: 62 degrees, real feel 64 degrees

"We hate these people."
ROBERT TUTUNY, of Kenya’s Kalenjin tribe, on the violence that is forcing the exodus of the Kikuyus, the tribe of Kenya’s president, from the western part of the country.

Hmph....what the hell's going on with the Kalenjin? This quote makes it into the JuggerLog, because 12 of the top 20 marathon runners in the world are from the Kalenjin tribe of Kenya. Right now, it seems they're taking a break from distance training to massacre Kikuyus over land rights and what looks like a rigged election. The conflict seems to have been brewing since Kenya's independence in 1963. Let's hope that, after sifting through the bones of the 50 women and children burned alive as they hid in a church for, the Kalenjins can get their minds right and get back to running.

Nevermind. Looks like the Kikuyus are killing them back. A Kalenjin Olympic runner has already been murdered in this chaos.

Never in my life did I think that politics and world issues would make me think about sports.

- I dedicated my run today to the people of Kenya - from all tribes. Whenever I felt a little tired, I thought about the recent world champion who barely survived a machete attack, and I thought, "If your life depended on it, you wouldn't stop,now would you?" Then it was easy to keep running. I dedicated the footfalls and the smell of donated post-Christmas pine trees and the people playing with their babies and their dogs in the park. I marveled at the accustomed peace of living in America, and I was thankful for my luck. I wrote some other things in my notebook about this, but it's 2am, and I'm tired. I'll write more tomorrow, or I won't. All is well, and it's been a full day.

And I ran for 25 MINUTES without stopping today. I really can't believe it. I am a runner now. I have arrived.

Finally, Seth, my downstairs neighbor wants to run the marathon too. Crazy talk. He did a half-marathon in August, so he'll have a lot to offer. Plus, he seems like a fun guy...

Saturday, January 5, 2008

January 5, 2008 - Saturday
Ran at 1:20pm - 20 minute run - 38 degrees - real feel 45 degrees - wore: ankle socks, knit pants, tank w/built-in bra, long sleeved shirt, gloves, hat

Wore way less today, and felt fine. Single layer of bottoms, and a scant double layer on top. Started a little cool, but warmed up nicely after telling myself at the beginning that this was nothing. It's nice knowing I've handled worse.

Now the running part is another story. Now I understand why marathon trainer guy says not to run three days in a row. My legs are tired! I would have never expected it, but my thighs are sore, and running today was hard. I had to stop periodically to get my mind and my body right. That goes to show me that my recovery time after weight training is no indicator of my recovery time after cardio. This is what it's like to go from being a highly conditioned movement athlete to being a cardio novice. I look forward to complete rest tomorrow, because my mess is seriously fatigued.

I love Prospect Park. It's what parks should be like. Beutiful and true to the community without being crowded. It was great to run out there on a Saturday and look at all the people playing soccer and walking their dogs. I feel so lucky to have this environment as my back yard...

My Goal for being able to run for 30 minutes without stopping is: January 20th, and I will be making that deadline. It means more rest and recovery, more focus, and better nutrition. It also means appreciating the mental challenge of doing repetitive movement. There are so many challenges for me in this process. I feel like I chase a new challenge each time I go out. I realized today that these traiings will never become easy - each workout gets me to the point where I'm just barely capable of completing the next stage of training.

That's fine with me. If I can get to the point where I'm comfortable with that feeling, I think I will be fine, or better than fine - because that's likely what the actual marathon will feel like. Next session, though, I start out telling myself that I will keep running no matter what. That's important.

Seems I'm falling asleep sitting up, so off to get some caffeination before I start to napping on my naps.

I have a script deadline of March 1st - rough draft. Time to get crackin'!

Peace.

Friday, January 4, 2008

January 4, 2008 - Friday
Started entry at 5:00pm - ran at 5:45 pm - 24 minute run - 35 degrees - wore thigh socks, fleece pants, sports bra, tank top, long sleeve top, hoodie, pink monogrammed gloves and hat
http://www.competitiverunner.com/winterruns.php - my go to site for how to dress for winter running.

Right this second, I don't want to run, but I have to remember that -
1. 20 minutes from now, I'll be finished.
2. At the beginning, it will suck, but by the end, I won't want to stop.
3. I will be so freakin' proud of myself after I'm done that it will be completely worth it.
4. It's 35 degrees out - a full 14 degrees warmer than when I ran yesterday.
5. Yeah, it's already dark out, but that means no sun damage for me today.
6. I just bought a pasta machine, so I definitely need to get my run on.


POST-RUN:
DID IT!!! Man, I was not in the mood, but feel so good that I did it. Not my best run, lots of stops and start. More of a run/sit - ran to the movie theater and back. Had to keep reminding myself that this moment leads to another moment, and that the next moment would be easier and better because of my efforts in this one. As usual, I felt much more energized near the end. I think it's more the 20 minute warm-up rule than anyhthing else. Not sure. have to make sure to feed and hydrate myself better in the coming months. Also, getting better at not over-dressing for my runs. This time, I only wore one pair of socks, two layers on my legs, and less on my torso. I was also more comfortable with being coldish at the beginning of the run. As a Negro, I'm leary of the suggestions of white folks on dressing warmly for the winter. They just like the cold too much.

Also, my left thigh was talking to me a little bit during the run. Now that I've cooled down, both quads are being quite verbal. Interesting...

PS - seems I've been editing my schedule on my computer, but not online. Will rectify anon. But first, I've got a script deadline for March. Better get crackin'.
January 3, 2008 - Thursday - Happy New Year!!!
4:00 pm - 20 minute run - 21 degrees(wind chill 7 degrees) - wore thigh socks, leggings, fleece pants over that, two more pairs of thin socks, sports bra, Sugoi cling hoodie, long sleeved shirt over it, hat, a hoodie on top of that

Today was my second 20 minute run - much harder than the first - possibly due to the fact that it was colder than a witch's tit in a brass bra. My body felt fine. Even without a lot of specialized clothing, I've got this layering thing down pat. The thing that got to me was my face. By the end of the run, it was burning with the cold. I never thought I would utter this sentence, but - I need a balaclava.

The run itself felt much harder than my first 20 min., but I think that had to do with my choice of scenery. I took the outside paved loop of the park, instead of crossing back and forth along the interior paths, which is a much more scenic experience. I couldn't distract myself as much in that context. I also couldn't get away from the fact that nearly every person on planet earth runs faster than me. It started to get kind of funny.

I was definitely experiencing some fatigue in my legs early on, and I'm beginning to think that that's just a phase of exercise that I have to pull through. When I got tired, I willed myself not to stop or walk. In the worst case scenario, I would jog extremely slowly, but I wouldn't walk, and I wouldn't stop. Once I felt better, I would pick up the pace and get a move on. I always have so much energy at the end of the session. I'm going to experiment with different snacks, etc. pre-run. I also wonder if it's too early for ice baths...

I can't believe that, less than 4 weeks from now, I'll be running 5 miles! What? I should sign up for a 5K. I guarantee it'll be an extremely slow 5K, but I'm still running it.

Have to run tomorrow, because I missed my Wednesday run due to a deadline. That means going three days in a row, but I think it will be ok. Sunday will be a complete rest day, and besides, Dean Karnazes says I can run up to six days a week. There's nothing like referring to a complete freak of nature for a handy second opinion.