January 30, 2008,
last run: January 21st. - 25 minutes - strugglin'
What??!! I haven't run in almost 2 weeks. Somehow, just couldn't get myself to do it the first week I came back from Little Rock, and then took sick this week. Color me demoralized as I have yet to do a 40 minute run, nor have I been able to start mileage this week. Marathon Rookie guy suggests just starting back with training as if you'd never missed any training time. I think it's crazy talk, but so is running a marathon, so I'll take his word for it.
Right now, I'm hot and dehydrated and stuffed up and achy, and every morning, I wake up and want to commence to running, only to subsequently stand up and realize that that is not to be the case. And coughing. Mustn't forget the coughing. I am short tempered and my eyes hurt. My body aches almost carelessly. I have only meditated about once in 2008.
Maybe it's the combination of traveling and also trying to keep up my running schedule that's slowed me down. Once again, crazy talk, but I will perservere. Whatever happens:
I AM STILL A RUNNER.
I am fully prepared to be shocked shitless by my retained abilities when I do recommence to running. I honestly think that my hiatus was simply my body knowing it needed a break after all of the traveling and caretaking and what not that I had been doing over these past couple of months - possibly also and internal sense that sickness was coming on and I needed to rest up. Whatever it is, I'm trying to be as lazy as possible and look forward to getting back on the path.
Visualize success...
Joined New York Road Runners tonight to start the process of ensuring entry in the 2009 New York Marathon. I thought it would be interesting not to wait until the very last minute - weighing the decision repeatedly, constantly turning it over in my mind...Turns out, there does come a knot in my stomach as I choose something that I can't turn back from - making a choice when I'm not pushed up against a wall. Shiny.
Now for more juice, and the legal-narcotic ecstasy of Nyquil Cough (tm).
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
January 20th - 28 minutes -
Ran in Little Rock - the hills, the hills. Very steep. Love running by my mother's place. Hills so steep and curving, you're never sure when the top will come, and then flat in the park. In my mind, Prospect Park has no elevation. Not compared to Little Rock hills. But then again, that's what I grew up with. Not being able to see far away for all the mountains and trees. Even in town.
Ran in Little Rock - the hills, the hills. Very steep. Love running by my mother's place. Hills so steep and curving, you're never sure when the top will come, and then flat in the park. In my mind, Prospect Park has no elevation. Not compared to Little Rock hills. But then again, that's what I grew up with. Not being able to see far away for all the mountains and trees. Even in town.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
January 17th - Thursday - 7:30am - 41 degrees - sports bra, wicking tank, long-sleeved shirt, knit pants, gloves
Missed yesterday's run with travel. My schedule is so much harder to navigate when I go to Little Rock. I have to be much more vigilant in order to get my runs in. Add to that the fact that my family runs on a 24 hour schedule, and it means inadequate sleep as well. Well, off to do my 30 minute run - my first one ever. I have to do it without stopping. Without stopping.
Post-run;
30 minutes?
NO SWEAT!!
Well, plenty of sweat, actually, but really no problem on the running tip. I actually felt better than on my shorter runs. Definitely interesting to feel the process of my legs changing over to being cool with running during each session. They start out feeling sore and heavy, and I have to decide to keep going - then after they recover/warm-up/blood flows, they feel fine and can pump like a metronome. I think one of the things about being a mesomorph is that that changeover takes longer to happen than in ectomorphs. Would be an interesting concept, suggesting that I might be more naturally well-equipped to run long distances than I thought.
If, by some grace, I'm able to run tomorrow, I would like to run painful hill repeats over by the trailer, as that will be the best thing to burn out the stifling pent-up emotional energy that I have felt during this trip. The problem is absorbing everybody's emotional energy, and having no space here that belongs solely to me. Quite simply, at this moment, and feelings do change, I am sick of being a guest. Plus, the moral suppor tthing is draining when you don't have a little space to do your own thing. I am only now coming to a place where running can be that escape for me. Set me free.
Missed yesterday's run with travel. My schedule is so much harder to navigate when I go to Little Rock. I have to be much more vigilant in order to get my runs in. Add to that the fact that my family runs on a 24 hour schedule, and it means inadequate sleep as well. Well, off to do my 30 minute run - my first one ever. I have to do it without stopping. Without stopping.
Post-run;
30 minutes?
NO SWEAT!!
Well, plenty of sweat, actually, but really no problem on the running tip. I actually felt better than on my shorter runs. Definitely interesting to feel the process of my legs changing over to being cool with running during each session. They start out feeling sore and heavy, and I have to decide to keep going - then after they recover/warm-up/blood flows, they feel fine and can pump like a metronome. I think one of the things about being a mesomorph is that that changeover takes longer to happen than in ectomorphs. Would be an interesting concept, suggesting that I might be more naturally well-equipped to run long distances than I thought.
If, by some grace, I'm able to run tomorrow, I would like to run painful hill repeats over by the trailer, as that will be the best thing to burn out the stifling pent-up emotional energy that I have felt during this trip. The problem is absorbing everybody's emotional energy, and having no space here that belongs solely to me. Quite simply, at this moment, and feelings do change, I am sick of being a guest. Plus, the moral suppor tthing is draining when you don't have a little space to do your own thing. I am only now coming to a place where running can be that escape for me. Set me free.
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